This was just after I had learned of a good friends passing. It was the third death I had learned of this week. Sunday, a 60 year old cousin lost to a brain aneurysm, Wednesday, a friends Mom. Thursday a friend I have known practically my entire adult life. Also learned of my nephew loosing his 4 month old pup to a heart defect. Meanwhile my 93 year old father-in-law is hanging on to life in hospice after breaking his back 6 weeks ago.
I thought about this.. all of this. It's a lot. Managing not visiting my father-in-law to go to a wake tonight, while encouraging my kids to visit their grandfather for what might be the last time, and trying to support hubby with all that he is going through. And I think that it sometimes feels like being burried when nothing else more can get thrown on; yet knowing, of course, there could be more coming in the next minute or hour or day. And then someone else asks about doing something next month or the month after, and I can't even see past tomorrow or this weekend. And then I say to myself, 'okay just breath'. I can not handle everything all at once, but I can do my best to handle one thing at a time, one breath at a time, one step at a time.
I have fallen in love with hiking and nature during the Pandemic. There is something so healing about being out there using your body to conquer whatever the goal is in front of you and just being at peace with the majestry of nature. The physical workout can be anything you want it to be. The mental healing can be the rejuvenation to get through whatever the next obstacle that gets thrown in this crazy journey of life.
I find myself always trying to be positive even when I don't feel it so much, so that comment earlier today really resonated with me. This quote kind of melds all that together, and really says it all in much less words than I could hope to. Breathing, taking the rocky journey of life by putting one foot in front of the other again and again allowing the beauty in, I absolutely believe can help when life becomes so crazy that that's all you can do.