Today I stepped on the scale. Probably not the brightest thing to do after a week of birthday and Easter celebrations.
I was concerned with what I would see but not surprised. I am up 8-10 pounds from where I want to be. I can see the difference... spare tire not wanted... I can feel the difference. STUPID..STUPID..STUPID how did this happen? How did I let this happen? I've worked so hard, for so long, I should not have let this happen.
So now, Of course if you know me, I must analyze, I must understand, I must not make excuses, I must move on.
To analyze and understand: February 2018 has officially been re-classified as the sickest I have been in the last 5 years and probably in this entire century. I had 3 rounds of antibiotics and 2 rounds of steroids. LOL Google the side effect of that just for fun!!! . And today I believe due to my continued sluggishness and hair loss that all this sent my hypo-thyroidism even more out of control ... which can effect all kinds of things! And then not be minimized at all... that stupid tooth... ummmm yup, the one scheduled for surgery later this month.... really impacts almost everything I eat ... and Ice cream tasted so good. I knew that was bad, but lack of energy and likely thyroid induced fog made it an easy choice. And finally birthday and Eastercelebrations may be a contributing factor, but we must live life too, right?
I put all of this out there Really NOT to make excuses... I put it out there to emphasize everyone struggles. Everyone has things that come up that can absolutely sideline your goals; but it's up to us individually if we choose to let that "sideline" be a temporary blip on the road to health or a permanent explosion we might not even ever try to rectify. It's so easy to look at someone and dismiss what we perceive as some kind of "perfection" by thinking 'well they are lucky, they don't have to worry'.
So how 'bout we just blame LIFE. Life is the excuse - if we let it be. I totally get that in the grand scheme of things 8-ish pounds is manageable and something I can come back from.... I have no doubt I will get back to where I want to weight wise. And today this is the struggle I choose to take on. I need to ensure the thyroid is tested and in check. I need to stay away from temptations like ice cream. I need to learn how to physically eat differently with my teeth problems which will likely be for the next year. I need to continue my exercise and if I don't feel 100%, I need to adjust and at times may need to expect less ... and the biggest thing I need to continue ... the thing that has has brought me sooooo far is my super dense nutrition program. In the grand scheme of things I know it's 80-20. And further, It has been much too long since I did a 2 day cleanse. Committing to that by the end of the month.
The time is now. The time is always now.